my way just works better

I may have been a little absent lately and I am back now richer from an amazing experience. Nearly 4 months ago I met someone wonderful and I have allowed myself to relax more than I usually do. At the same time my daughter told me while we shared a yummy pizza than she was beyond fed up with my refusal to commit. There are some great people around , she said, how can a loving person like you constantly turn down chances of something more substantial than just " cheeky cheeky boom boom ", her words , not mine. Since I have the highest respect for my daughter's opinion I opened up about my new lover being so extraordinary that I might actually be tempted not to be naughty. My daughter was delighted and even wanted to meet that wonder. My new lover is sane, articulate, caring, considerate, educated, sexy and smart. We have had nearly 4 months of absolutely fabulous sex, without any cheating at all, I kept turning every single offer down, even from really cute guys.  We would have great conversations, sharing thoughts and opinions. We were on the same wave length intellectually and even my cat totally approved. I was so enjoying that new found intimacy that I did  something I had never done with a lover before, I always keep my writing a secret from anyone I date but this time.... I basically handed my new lover the key to my mind. Reading my book and my blog was quite a tool to know how to handle me right. This took a lot of trust on my part but I took the risk anyway, suspecting I might get my ass kicked someday but it didnt stop me at the time. I always knew there was a heinous, hysterical  ex lover whom might be a threat to us some day but I never thought it would come so soon. Faced with a choice that I always knew might come, my lover opted for the past rather than the present. For tyranny rather than sweetness.
Why would someone settle for non love when they can have sanity and fun ?
Do you get my frustration and disappointment ? If someone else ever breaks up with me again saying I am " too good,  so strong, so this and so that,"  I swear I will slap them hard !
My point is I have had 2 wonderful affairs  that have confirmed big time that my way is best.
Last year I had this lover Martin with whom there was  passion but no communication at all, I allowed myself to give in ever so slightly  and got screwed in the end. This year I had this lover K with whom communication flowed freely and happily, the best ever. I opened up completely, and gave that person all the things I had refused Martin  last year and..... I still end up screwed anyway  !
Is this a huge cosmic joke or what ?
I have learned my lesson ( twice ) , and will get back to my old ways. fuck trust and fidelity, long live fuckbuddies and one night stands.
My way, being the boss of my sex life, my way is THE best way.